3/3/10

Back on Campus

Today, I went to school… but not my school.

I met my friend Beth on campus at The University of Birmingham. My favourite part about The University of Birmingham is that the website's url refers to the school as 'bham', bahaha. The campus is really beautiful! The school was founded in 1900 and is built almost entirely in beautiful red brick, complete with a very tall clock tower. I loved all the green space and lush trees lining the pathways and I especially liked walking past the football pitches, where the University's football teams were practicing. The atmosphere is great in campus— but I have the sneaking suspicion that the only reason I enjoyed it so much was because I am no longer a student.
Image found at http://s0.geograph.org.uk/photos/05/21/052171_171751ec.jpg

I met Beth at the clock tower and we had a quick bite to eat in the staff lounge (I felt special!). It was awesome to get out of the house and chat to a friend over lunch. Thanks, Beth!

How Jordan Celebrates Canada's Hockey Gold!

My brother goes to the University of Western Ontario in London, Ontario, Canada. This weekend, he gathered with a whole bunch of other Western students to watch the Canada-US Olympic hockey final. Look out for him in the background at 0:32 and again with an expression of utter sorrow at 1:07 when the US tied the game. This family loves Canada.

3/2/10

Closing Ceremonies

Reeling from Canada's Men's hockey team's amazing victory over the US, I sat, weeping, watching the closing ceremonies of the 2010 Vancouver Olympic Games. A Canadian flag waved across the screen and Youngest, who had wandered in to cuddle with me, said 'you're from there'. Yes I am.

Images from http://www.morethanthegames.co.uk/other-sports/019571-in-pictures-the-closing-ceremony-2010-winter-olympics-vancouver?page=0%2C0

I thought that the closing ceremonies were GREAT! They did get a bit boring at times, like when it took 20 minutes for the athletes to wander in and find their seats, but it certainly had some redeeming features. I especially enjoyed the appearances of William Shatner, Catherine O'Hara, Michael J. Fox and —even though I'm not a huge fan— Michael Bublé. The inflatable Mounties and Beavers were perfect! The whole 'Maple Leaf Forever' Hollywood number was incredibly cheesy (and slightly parodic of the golden age of the movie-musical), but it totally fit the mood set by the opening of the mime/engineer 'fixing' the Olympic cauldron. It was a great show, but I did find myself shouting 'shut up!' at the screen as BBC commentators, Hazel Irvine and Kerrin Lee-Gartner, put in their two cents about everything they could possible think of! I couldn't even hear any of the musical numbers that followed Bublé's singing spectacle. I will have to see if I can find a Canadian version online.

P.S. Neil Young was magical.

3/1/10

My Weekend Away at Cefn Lea

On Friday night, I swung by to pick up one of my church friends (let's call her…Mara) for a lovely evening road-trip to Cefn Lea. It was dark by the time we left Birmingham and unfortunately, we caught the tail-end of the Friday rush hour. At first, we sang along to the radio, but when we reached Wales and couldn't properly tune in on anything, we repeated acapella Glee versions of 'Don't Stop Believing' and 'Gold Digger'.We arrived quite late, probably around 9pm and chatted to our fellow Momentumites before heading off to our bunks.

The next day, we were treated to a full English breakfast and our weekend officially began with a session of worship and teaching. After lunch, a large group of us climbed a massive hill! The view would have been pretty spectacular, but it was quite foggy on Saturday, so we saw a whole lot of white. We had fun bundling up in our silly toques and scarves, but I ended up stripping down to my t-shirt because I had worked up quite a sweat.

We had another teaching time in the evening with a very powerful time of worship. It was invigorating to sing together and praise God! It was a real celebration of who God is! We ended the evening with games… somehow I was rallied into playing a game of mafia.

Sunday's teaching was split up into a guy's session and a girl's session— which was great! Then, we had a delicious roast dinner. My drive back was so different! On Friday, I couldn't see any of the mountains that surrounded us, but our return trip let us see the beauty of the Welsh countryside. It was gorgeous! I didn't take any pictures, so I'll have to go back another time.

Well, that's it for today!

2/25/10

P.S. I'm off to Cefn Lea…

… for a Weekend Away with 'Momentum', the students and 20s group at church. It should be fun!!!

I'd like to thank…

Hello, readers! I just want to say 'thank you' for reading! Thanks for enjoying my stories, amusing and mundane, and for letting me know you've appreciated my writing. I love getting comments on each of my entries and hearing your thoughts! Keep 'em coming!

Unfortunately, I don't have anything too interesting to write about today that I feel comfortable unleashing on the world wide web. It was mostly a usual Thursday… I took the kids to school, did a little tidying and ironing, spent my day at Oxfam and listening to BBC Radio 1, collected the kids, made them tea, went to my small group… which seems less small each week!

In small group tonight, we talked about emotions and how to deal with them in a healthy way. This was so weird to me— some would say that it was such a 'God thing'— because I have been pretty emotional this week. Seeing Stef and spending time doing so much Canadian stuff on the weekend and then coming back to Birmingham where I don't feel totally at home left me a bit anxious. Monday and Tuesday were a little rough, since I had a lot of time on my own to brood over my predicament and to worry about things coming up in my future. So talking openly about 'emotions' without feeling like a sissy or feeling like I had to 'suck it up' was nice. It was also humbling hearing about the reasons for the emotions that my fellow group members were feeling. It was nice to be prayed for too.

One thing I have done this week to help me process my anxiety was to write down all the things I am stressed about, pray about them and look at some verses in the Bible that remind me that God's got my back. This really helped. I was able to see all the things that are causing me anxiety, realize that they're not all that significant and then just give them up to God and trust that he will help me deal with them. I'll leave you with the verse I've been looking at this week (I used a few translations/paraphrases… sometimes it helps me understand better):

John 14:27 (Jesus speaking)

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your heart be troubled and do not be afraid. (NIV)

I'm leaving you well and whole. That's my parting gift to you. Peace. I don't leave you the way you're used to being left— feeling abandoned, bereft. So don't be upset. Don't be distraught. (MSG) I'm not usually a huge fan of 'The Message', but I think this passage is worded perfectly.

I am leaving you with a gift of peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don't be troubled or afraid. (NLT)

I give you peace, the kind that only I can give. It isn't like the peace that this world can give. So don't be worried or afraid. (CEV)

2/24/10

I got this in an email and I just had to share it: I can only imagine... Heaven as written by a 17 Year Old Boy

This is excellent and really gets you thinking about what will happen in Heaven.

17-year-old Brian Moore had only a short time to write something for a class. The subject was what Heaven was like. "I wowed 'em," he later told his father, Bruce. It's a killer. It's the bomb. It's the best thing I ever wrote." It also was the last.
Brian's parents had forgotten about the essay when a cousin found it while cleaning out the teenager's locker at Teays Valley High School in Pickaway County

Brian had been dead only hours, but his parents desperately wanted every piece of his life near them, notes from classmates and teachers, and his homework. Only two months before, he had handwritten the essay about encountering Jesus in a file room full of cards detailing every moment of the teen's life. But it was only after Brian's death that Beth and Bruce Moore realized that their son had described his view of heaven.
It makes such an impact that people want to share it. "You feel like you are there," Mr. Moore said. Brian Moore died May 27, 1997, the day after Memorial Day. He was driving home from a friend's house when his car went off Bulen-Pierce Road in Pickaway County and struck a utility pole. He emerged from the wreck unharmed but stepped on a downed power line and was electrocuted.

The Moore 's framed a copy of Brian's essay and hung it among the family portraits in the living room. "I think God used him to make a point. I think we were meant to find it and make something out of it," Mrs. Moore said of the essay. She and her husband want to share their son's vision of life after death. "I'm happy for Brian.. I know he's in heaven. I know I'll see him.

Here is Brian's essay entitled "The Room."
In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features except for the one wall covered with small index card files. They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endless in either direction, had very different headings.
As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read "Girls I have liked." I opened it and began flipping through the cards.. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one. And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was. This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldn't match. A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their content. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching.

A file named "Friends" was next to one marked "Friends I have betrayed." The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird. "Books I Have Read," "Lies I Have Told," "Comfort I have Given," "Jokes I Have Laughed at."

Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: "Things I've yelled at my brothers." Others I couldn't laugh at: "Things I Have Done in My Anger", "Things I Have Muttered Under My Breath at My Parents." I never ceased to be surprised by the contents Often there were many more cards than expected. Sometimes fewer than I hoped. I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived...

Could it be possible that I had the time in my years to fill each of these thousands or even millions of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting.. Each signed with my signature.

When I pulled out the file marked "TV Shows I have watched," I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of shows but more by the vast time I knew that file represented.

When I came to a file marked "Lustful Thoughts," I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size, and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed content. I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded. An almost animal rage broke on me.

One thought dominated my mind: No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!" In insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards.
But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it. Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh.

And then I saw it. The title bore "People I Have Shared the Gospel With." The handle was brighter than those around it, newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand..
And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that they hurt. They started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key. But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him.

No, please not Him... Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus. I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response.. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own. He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes.
Why did He have to read every one? Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn't say a word. He just cried with me.

Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card. "No!" I shouted rushing to Him. All I could find to say was "No, no," as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, and so alive.
The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood. He gently took the card back He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side. He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, "It is finished."

I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written.

"For God so loved the world that He gave His only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life." John 3:16